For the past few years, I’ve been in a state of uncertainty, acutely feeling a lack of control over my life. I’m constantly coming up with and seeing patterns. Just like when I was a child, I look for meaning in random images, connections between disparate events, and recurring situations. My attention latches onto details, forming a set of insignificant yet mandatory actions. None of this explains what is happening, but it allows my anxiety to subside for a while.
With the help of imaginary conventions, I try to find a foothold in a world where there simply isn’t one. I create a space where everything is permissible and makes sense. However, the deeper I immerse myself in fantasy, the clearer I realize: this order exists only as long as I believe in it.
I would like to express my gratitude to the “Sfera” Foundation for the Support of Contemporary Art and the “Polezreniya” School of Contemporary Photography
